Transition
Posted By Wendy on July 23, 2010
It seems that so many people I know are in a time of transition, and that includes me as well. After a very blessed year of helping to launch a house of prayer in Utah, the Lord led me to step away this past March and trust Him to lead me on to…hmmmmm…only He knows. The year I served at RHOP was very challenging and rewarding, and I was very blessed with many relationships developed through long hours of prayer and team ministry together. In the prayer room and leading worship, not a day went by that I didn’t thank God for allowing me to do what I love most, whispering in gratitude, “I was made for this…thank You Abba.” So leaving was a painful experience and felt a little like jumping out into the unknown. The change from being a full time intercessory missionary at RHOP left me with many unanswered questions, a wide open schedule and the accompanying sense of loss that is to be expected. My sense of purpose and destiny, while not lost, seemed to be enveloped in a swirl of confusion and sadness.
In the beginning, the uncreated God of Genesis hovered over the waters. His Spirit is still hovering over the waters of creation in us and all around us. Hovering over the waters of our trouble, the waters of our tears, the waters of our souls, as we wait for Him to breathe His breath of new life into whatever chaos we find ourselves in. As we wait for the sound of His voice, saying, “Let there be light,” we can be assured that He will speak, in due time.
Over the past few months, through various ways the Lord has prompted me to not be in a hurry to move out of this transitional season by rushing ahead, but to just “be” with Him “in” the chaos and let Him breathe life into me, allowing His Spirit to blow me wherever He wills. This can be more challenging than it sounds. I don’t want to miss the gifts He has for me in times of waiting, in times of uncertainty. Whenever I am in a season of waiting, He reminds me that this is where He teaches me to lean upon Him, not my own understanding. My own understanding can deceive me into thinking I am making progress, but in reality I might be rushing down the wrong path, only to have to turn around and backtrack to the point where I first headed in the wrong direction. Better to wait and let the Holy Spirit breathe His life giving wisdom. He has never let me down, and I am finding this to be so true right now, in this season of my life.
Time and time again since March, I have been amazed as God has confirmed in many ways that I am exactly in the place He wants me. That He would do this for me means so much, as I have at times felt I was stumbling around in the dark…and yet somehow He has caused me to “stumble” onto the path He had for me all along. A growing sense of gratitude and Shalom peace has now overtaken me and I am stunned at the wisdom and mercy of my Abba! As I seek His face, things have come into clearer focus for me, and new open doors and opportunities are becoming visible through the thin mist of what was once a dark swirly fog. I am taking small steps forward, trusting He will lead and provide and equip as I move with His Spirit. I will share more about these steps at a later time, but for now, let me say that He is good and His plans for us are better than anything we can imagine or try to make happen in the flesh. What He has done for me, and others, He will do for you. Trust Him and He will amaze you with His goodness!
As you allow the Holy Spirit to breathe on you and take you deeper still into His glorious love, be assured that He is faithful. He is the One who can bring beauty out of the ashes no matter what you are going through.
In His Love,
Wendy
Comments